Down!

I am down 2lbs!!! I am so pleased. I was good yesterday but not great. I really have to try to get this eating down pat.

I don’t really have much to say today. I am debating whether to go work out or not. My sleeping has been great, I have been asleep by 8pm most nights but tonight is party night so I am going to have trouble staying awake even without working out. But then I really want to get my third workout in.

Creeping Up

My weight is creeping up. I did well with food until just before bed when I gave in. I didn’t go as bad as usual and given I’d walked for 220 minutes yesterday and went to the gym I thought I would be okay, but evidently not as I went up a pound today. I have to really curb my eating!

I don’t have anything strenuous planned today. I am just going to catch up on housework and maybe fill out an application. I do need to get a walk or something in though. I just hope the weather improves as it is raining out!

You know, music has a profound effect on my exercise efforts. Yesterday in the gym I was feeling quite lethargic and going at it on the XT at a pitiful 8.7 but then I Can’t Speak French by Girls Aloud (shh don’t tell anyone!) came on my ipod and I was able to crack it up to a more respectable 10.0! And that in turn helped me to motivate my body into a more strenuous workout once I hit the treadmill. I have started doing ongoing running again instead of HIIT. HIIT is good in terms of fitness levels, I certainly feel knackered afterwards, but it was good to do ongoing running again. I think I am going to concentrate on that for a while now.

Day 2

Day two and I am still here! I didn’t really manage to control my food yesterday as I’d had my days allowance by 9am (!) but I did manage to go for a walk so it is not all bad.

I have been much better today. I went to the gym and did a big workout. I started doing long running rather than HIIT again and it was good. I did 18 minutes running in total. It was good, I was down before I went and it helped to raise my mood.

For lunch today I had a salad with turkey breast grilled. It was lovely. I had it with a wholemeal pita. I want to purge my body of rubbish food, because I am such it is dragging me down and stopping by weightloss.

I have started using sparkpeople so if you are on there please add me as a friend. You can check out what I am eating and things on there.

Enthusiasm

I have been struggling, big time. I have been trying not to put on – at least – and failing. I am fluctuating anywhere between 14.0 and 14.10 in any given point of the week. It’s got to stop; I have to start losing seriously again. I want to feel I have it in control again, I want to feel good and start looking better again.

I went back to the gym yesterday for the first time in two weeks. I am sure my lack of exercise was contributing to my lethargic attitude to weightloss. After I came out of the gym I fancied making a salad and so went and bought the ingredients. I havent eaten salad in months, since before I lost my appitite that time.

My insomnia has been raging lately too, which is the biggest problem I have when losing weight. Not only am I too tired for activity, but I tend to eat non stop throughout the 24-hour period. So during bouts of insomnia, dieting is a write-off really. I slept for 11 hours last night though, from 5pm-4am, so I am almost back on normal time. I stopped taking Nytol because I did not want to rely on it the whole time but I am going to take it when I need to because it is a small price to pay if it means I can function on a day to day basis.

So I am going to try and write in here on a daily basis again and see if that helps me to get back on track. I am going to go to the gym three times per week again. I am going to write down everything I eat. I will drink 4 pints of fluid per day. Hopefully I will become enthusiastic again.

Limited Success

Current Weight: 14.4 stones
Yesterday’s Weight: no idea
Yesterday’s Calories: Under 1800
Exercise Taken Yesterday: None
Challenge Points: 2

I have been trying this week, with limited success. I had a good day on Monday but then Tuesday I ended up giving in because I was so ravenous all day (I think this was to do with the interval training on Monday), Wednesday was okay but I ended up binging in the night, and yesterday I decided to start writing everything down in my book again like I used to in the beginning. I was good all day and ended the day with 1520 calories, which wasnt bad I thought. But in the night I had a cheese slice, a yogurt and packet of crisps, which added another 270 odd calories to my day. I really need to stop eating when I am half asleep, it is starting to become a real problem. I am better than I was though, so hopefully it wont be for much longer.

I have to have bread in the house to prepare my son’s lunch for school. I am like a demon around bread. I can easily get through a loaf on my own inside two days if I eat with abandon. It is so much easier to make a sandwich than to cook a meal. But this week I bought a loaf and put it in the freezer. I just get two slices out per night to defrost for the lunchbox and so far this week I have not had any of the loaf at all (its only been 2 days, but still). I did also buy some wholemeal pittas so that I did not have to go without bread entirely. I have frozen those too, and they are actually really lovely warmed up in the oven, and less calories than 2 slices of bread. I have been averaging 2 pittas a day, within my allowance, so I am doing much better with bread.

I was doing good on my challenge yesterday. I drank my water (1 point), had my 5 fruit and veg (1 point) and stayed on track with my calories but then I ate in the night so lost those 3 points. So I have 2 points for yesterday. Must try harder!

Mix Up

Current Weight: 14.0 stones
Yesterday’s Weight: 14.3 stones
Yesterday’s WW Points on track? Yes
Exercise Taken Yesterday: None
Challenge Points: 4

I am back to putting this information at the top of the post because when I was doing that last time it really helped me to stay on track and lose weight. So you can see from this information that yesterday I had a good day of staying on track. It was my first such day in many weeks. I find it so hard to keep the motivation when I havent been doing it for a while but I maintain it is a lot to do with the chemicals from bad foods that make it so uncontrollable. I woke up yesterday after my night out on Saturday and just decided that would be the day I get back on track. Instead of gorging on bad foods to nurse my hangover, which I have been doing lately, I decided to cook up a treat in the way of a home made vegetable soup. It was lovely and curbed my need for bad foods and binging. Lately I have had a real problem with eating through the night (because I don’t sleep well) and last night was the first night I did not feel the need to do that, despite being up until 4am, so there has to be a connection between eating bad foods and wanting to gorge in the night. It is all good though.

You may wonder what the “challenge points” are? Well Betz and I have been talking about setting up a new challenge to help re-motivate us into weightloss. Rather than go for who can lose the most weight, we thought we would offer points for good behaviour, and then the person with the most points at, say, the end of the month is the winner. If you would like to get involved with this then leave a comment and I will update your results every week (on a Monday). Here is how you get points:

• Staying on track with food (either on points or under 1500 calories) – 3 points
• Full workout at the gym – 3 points (half arsed one, 1 point)
• 5 fruit and veg – 1 point
• 2litres of water – 1 point
• 30 minutes of exercise – 1 point (you cant count this into your gym workout to get more points, this is exercise other than a gym workout)

If I can think of other things to add for points then I will, if you have any ideas then let me know, but these are the basic stay healthy-stay on track incentives. I will do a weekly update, but the overall winner will be monthly.

I have changed my layout back to my original one. This is psychological in the main part. I was doing really really well when I had this layout. So I am hoping by putting it back up it will bring me success again. Plus it is pretty.

Today is also weigh in day. Last week I weighed in at 14.0 stones (196lbs) but over the next four days I was gorging through the night uncontrollably as I hinted at above, and by Thursday weighed in at 14.9!!! Saturday I weighed in at 14.3 and today I have weighed in at my lowest weight again of 14.0, so while I havent officially lost on my weekly weigh in, it is a huge success that I managed to regain control again and not end up two stone heavier. I am really looking forward to being in the 13’s now, like you cannot imagine. And it is going to happen in the next few days!!