I weighed in this morning and was the same, 15.4 stones. Initially I was not impressed, I’d hoped – and thought – I would see a pound or so fall, after all I *have* been trying hard! But then I thought again and realised this is no bad thing. For the past 5 dayas before I started again I put on half a stone so the fact that I am maintaining does show a difference. I just think the scales do reflect eating behaviour. I have been much better but I havent been fantastic. Mostly though I have managed to restrict my appitite somewhat and that is a good thing.
Today I feel strong enough to go back onto wwonline so that is what I have done. I had a lay in today so didn’t eat until quarter to twelve so allowed myself a bigger than normal breakfast. I had an apple, a banana, 2 wholemeal bread with marg and jam. (5 points in total) The only thing missing was a cup of decaff tea, but I didn’t think of that until I was mid-way through my toast.
Today is Saturday, which means one thing. Party time! Actually I am not sure what is happening tonight yet, I am waiting on my friend and her ability to get a babysitter. But if I do go out I think I am going to stay away from beer. I have one left in the fridge so I will have that but then I will change to Malibu and diet coke, I think. I used to drink vodka and diet coke but that is 1 point per shot and Malibu is only half a point. So in theory I could have twice the amount! I will limit myself to 6 though, like I used to in the good old days when I was successful at dieting.
I am back on Xenical again today. I am just much more successful at not binging when I know I will suffer for it, so hopefully that will help. I have 12 days supply left, so I will see how I go with that and go back to the nurse for more if need be.
