WeightLoss

I’ve been doing so well in the day time but it has still been going to pot during the night. Last night in the night I must have consumed 500+ calories. I thought the weigh in today would be a disaster. I started off 15.4, then went down to 15.0 and thought I’d be back up to 15.4 again but I wasn’t! I was down to 14.12!!!! So the concerted effort I am making in the day time must be helping me to lose weight. I am well happy.

I am reading that book about overeating as it arrived this morning. It talks about over eating as an addiction and I have to say so far it comes across as the biggest load of rubbish I have ever read. It might just not apply to me as I have battled the over eating mostly, it is just the night time stuff that relates to me but I am just not that impressed with it really. I will read the whole book though as it does have some informative stuff in it like about sugar being a drug. It suggests not looking at weightloss as a goal but as a side effect of healthy eating, which is all well and good but when you’re obese losing weight is not about looking better but about improving your health and she doesn’t really take that into account. She makes a lot of assumptions about fat people, predominately that we all want to lose weight to make other people like us more. And while that obviously is a factor in our motivation, it is certainly not my principal reason for weightloss (not anymore anyway). Anyway, enough on that book or I will wind myself up to the point where I can’t read it any more!!

Weigh In: 2.1: -6lbs

The weekend was an unmitigated disaster socially, but my weightloss could not have gone better! My appitite, helped along by a bout of nausea, is at an all time low. I am eating but only really my meals. I couldn’t ask for more.

Last week: 15.4/214lbs
This week: 14.12/208lbs
Loss: -6lbs

I guess a lot of it is water, but that does not matter to me. All I know and care about is that the scales are going in the right direction again, I am looking and feeling slimmer and am in control again. My stomach is MUCH flatter and my face is not so podgy. It is great!

First Day…

I have changed my layout once more, the effort I have put in this time really does reflect just how serious I feel about it now. I guess I had to get to the point where I need to turn it around and last night something clicked into place in my head, it felt different, and I guess that was motivation and focus that I so badly needed.

I was really bad with eating last night, once I have a bad choice that is pretty much it, the day is a write off, so I just ate with abandon, knowing today would be completely different. If I am perfectly honest though I did wonder if it would be any different today but when I woke up it just was, like motivation had parked its bum in today.

I stayed awake all day yesterday so that I would sleep last night but when it came to it I’d worked myself up into such a tizz about The Boy that sleep was not forthcoming at all. That is why I ended up redesigning my blog. It was 6am before I got any zeds, I had to get up at 7am and was back to sleep at 8am and was rudely awoken by the electricty company at 11. So as you can imagine I am shattered.

When I woke up I was quite busy, and frankly full from last night, so I didnt eat. I just had a cup of tea, with a dash of skimmed milk and canderel. Then I went over to my friends until 4.30pm so didn’t eat a thing all day. I came home and had my toast with marg and jam and another cup of tea (tea and toast is such a treat!) but got hungry within the hour so had my puffed wheat and a banana. I am just cooking up my dinner which is sweet potato, veg and salmon fishcake. Hopefully it will be all I eat tonight as I will take a Nytol tonight to get off to sleep and will give me a head start.

I weighed in this morning. I knew it would not be pretty and I was right. 15.4 stones or 214lbs. But it can only go down now that I am watching what I eat.

Weigh In Week 2

Two weeks into my serious weightloss plan and I am going at a slow and steady pace, which I am happy with.

Starting weight: 14.12 /208lbs
Last week’s weigh in: 14.7 /203lbs
Today’s weight: 14.5 /201lbs

This week has seen a number of highs and lows so let’s see the good and the bad in view:

Good

• I have managed to lose a steady pace of 2lbs this week.
• I have started introducing more exercise to my daily activity again after my recent lethargy (don’t feel so tired any more).

Bad

• I havent been logging what I eat and drink every day.
• I have not been drinking enough water.
• I didn’t go to the gym.
• I didn’t blog every day, mainly because no one was commenting and I lost interest!

I am really happy with my progress so far. I have lost half a stone since I started, which is pretty cool. If I do that 3 more times, I will be 2 stone less and no longer “fat”, it really doesn’t take an awful lot of effort once you get into the swing of things.

Not So Bad For Us

I am sitting here with a glass of water revelling, nay, basking in the glory that I have the loss of weight under control again. I woke up to another pound down today – 14.6, or 202lbs. I am so happy with this. My stomach is so much flatter but I think that is in part because I came on yesterday. I am so excited for the time when I have lost enough that it becomes noticable. I think the first time around it was at about 20lbs loss but hopefully as I have less to lose now it will be more dramatic sooner. Maybe wishful thinking, though!

This time starting dieting is such a different experience for me. I was morbidly obese, very alone, agoraphobic, living at my mums in a very stressful situation and having about 20 panic attacks a day. If I can manage to lose weight in that environment then frankly there is loads of hope for me now. I live in my own place, don’t have panic attacks or agoraphobia, have a very hectic weekend social life and am only just classed as ‘obese’ (3bmi away from overweight) and I have lots of friends. There is no reason whatsoever for me not to manage it now. Weightloss is not easy, as we all know, and it is a complete battle of the mind, but we also know how rewarding the results can be. THIS is what excites me.

For the record, not that this matters to me one way or the other but is good to have a record of, I am not using Xenical this time. This weightloss is completely natural. I mean it was natural last time, it bugs me when people assume it is not because of the pills, but you just have a helping hand kicking your habits into place. Critics of weightloss pills say the weight will all go back on afterwards or you’ll always rely on the tablets or you don’t learn proper eating habits and while I would agree this is the case with Reductil (which I did try once), it certainly is not the case with Xenical. Xenical is ALL about teaching good eating habits. But even so I am not going to use it just because I can. It was there and very beneficial to me at a time when all other avenues had failed me. I am not in the desperate situation now that I was in then and in some ways that will make weightloss harder but in other ways, easier.

Some people struggle to exercise when trying to lose weight and that holds them back but with me it is food I struggle with. I love food. I am a ganit. I am not fussy, will eat almost anything and in large portions too. Portion size has been the struggler for me. But cutting out bad foods too. Cheese, bread, ice cream, cakes, crisps, chocolate… you name it! I do find it easier to cut out than have in moderation though, and I feel healthier too. So this slightly unorthodox article by Amanda Ursell informing us of bad-foods-that-can-be-good really caught my eye. She tells us the nutritional benefits of red meat, white bread, kebabs, ice cream and butter! Articles like this should come with a warning to be taken with care. It’s all good knowing these can occassionally be ‘not so bad’ for us, but I do worry that some people will take the article literally and use it as an excuse to live on those foods, which would obviously not be sound health advice. But if you read between the lines, Amanda does make this very clear. Personally, I like the idea of ice cream for dessert every night (I actually started losing weight doing this last year!) and do eat red meat for the iron, but I am going to steer clear of white bread I think…

Weigh in 1

So, today marks one week where I have been seriously, consciously and actively trying to lose weight again. I think it has been a fairly successful week:

Starting Weight: 14.12 stones/208lbs
Week 1 WI: 14.7 stones/203lbs

Seeing this new tracker is good. Although I have only lost 5lbs this time around and I am used to seeing a lot more lost, I only have 67lbs to lose this time, which is a much better figure than the 130lbs I had when I started.

John is Fit does a weekly pro’s and con’s to his behaviour the week before and I thought this was a good idea so have stolen it!

My Good

• Every day but one I managed to restrict my food to the point where I lost weight.
• Wrote everything I ate in WLR
• Wrote in my weightloss blog every day.
• Made a conscious effort to eat well – get my vitamins and nutrients, 5 fruit and veg and drank 2litres of water most days.
• I got some exercise on 5/7 days.
• I have mostly managed to curb my sleep-eating problem.
• Stayed away from beer on Saturday night.

My Bad

• I am still expressing some binge eating behaviours now and again. I need to work on this further.
• I didn’t go to the gym because I (think) am anaemic. I have slowly been getting more activity again though.
• Ate on average 35-40g of fat in my daily food intake, would like to lower this to 25-30g.

Glorious Food

I only got up in the night once last night, which is quite good, but I did devour quite a few digestive biscuits at that point. The good news is that the biscuits are gone now and I will not be making the mistake of buying them again (it was the first time I’d bought any biscuits in years). I need to remain aware of my limitations. I haven’t had bread in the house for a week now and am really craving it but am going to continue to go without it for another week (until my son is back at school and needs a packed lunch) and hopefully get it out of my system somewhat. The other things I tend to binge in the night are yogurts and cereal. I am out of both of them at the moment and think this is a good thing as I cannot eat it if it is not available, but its not very convienient in the day time! I have oats in the cupboard though so I guess I will cook them up for breakfast.

For the third day in a row, I weighed in at 14.9 again. Once this would have been a complete disaster but I have struggled to even control my weight so the fact that I am managing not to put on is quite an achievement. This comes from watching my intake in the day, even if I am not at night.

Tonight is a ‘paint the town red’ night so I am looking forward to weightloss tomorrow. In recent weeks, the morning after the night before I have often weighed up to 6lbs less! Not only do I eat less because I am busier, I am more active with dancing, plus we usually have a few friends back after the pub so I do not get up and eat in the night! You have dehydration on top of that.