Getting The Control Back

I am out of control. This week has been horrific for my healthy eating plan. Today culmulated in my devouring all sorts of junk in a futile attempt at fixing my emotional needs. But I was unhealthy to a turning point, I think. I have realised I have to do this, and take it day by day. Only I can gain control again. I remember when I took control the first time around. I did it, I found the strength from nowhere. I DO have it in me to lose weight, even when life is not going my way and it’s about time I took control again.

So for the first time in my life I have written my eating plan BEFORE I eat it. Here it is and yes it is quite stodgy and full of bread but I have to work it so my body can cope with small changes. At this stage if I manage to keep to the calories below it will be a successful day.

Breakfast – 7am

2 wholemeal toast, marg, jam (230 calories)

Morning Snack – 10am

45g Puffed Wheat, Skimmed Milk (200 calories)

Lunch – 12.30pm

Cheese sandwich, banana (350 calories)

Afternoon Snack – 2-3pm

Packet crisps(potato chips), home made veggie soup if needed (120 calories)

Dinner – 5pm

Sweet potato, veg, 2 sausages or a burger (350 calories)

Evening Snack – 7-8pm

Sandwich (250 calories)

This comes to exactly 1500 calories, which is a good amount to consume for my weight. I am also going to go to the gym tomorrow. No excuses.

Counting Down the Days

I am still not feeling great, but I am at least a little more positive today. I have been good with food all day and my body feels ‘cleaner’ for it. I also went for two walks in the sunshine this afternoon and that has really helped, I think.

I have started using my fitday PC programme again. I don’t really log food in it as being an American programme it is too ardous to type in all my English foods from scratch, but it is a very useful tool in tracking my weightloss and measurements. As you can see I have set myself a new goal. I am putting my past weightloss down as a completed challenge and starting afresh today. If I aim for a loss of 2lb per week by Christmas I can be within the normal healthy range. That is in less than 6 months. I can be normal before the year is out! Seeing it this clearly is spuring me on.

I have made a decision to get some kind of exercise every day for seven days and see if that improves my mood. I am also going to keep eating well and writing everything down. I know I have been here before and said this stuff one too many times but I have to keep trying. I have to just remember that this is within my reach, all it takes is a bit of effort and concentration on my part.

I wrote about feeling so down constantly and I know the last time I felt like this weightloss is what turned my life around so I know what I have to do. At least this time I have half the distance to go that I had the first time around and I can reach goal much quicker. In 26 weeks. Half a year exactly.