Clothes Shopping

I havent bought any clothes for ages just because finances dictate that I can’t. I decided to go window shopping today but when I saw the sales I could not help myself. New Look had a huge markdown. I got a jean skirt, black going out skirt, a pink gypsy skirt, a tshirt and a cardi top all for £26 ($50)!!! I may have spent money I don’t really have but I think clothes shopping has done me the world of good.

It’s about taking pride in my appearance and caring what I look like. I think I have forgotten to care. I am struggling to stay in a size 16 at the moment (my size 18 trousers are getting scarily comfy!) but I refused to go up a size with my new clothes, so I bought it all in a size 16. This means I have to work a bit harder to look good in my clothes.

You know, I see clothes in a size 8 and 10 (US 6 and and they look so tiny but they’re not. I think what I wouldn’t give to fit in those, but then if I would give anything I would just get on and lose, wouldn’t I? If only it were that easy.

Tigerlily has been such a source of inspiration to me. She is a fitness fanatic (like I was a few months ago!) and she recently posted a picture of her arms looking fab. A while ago we were a few pounds apart but now she is 20 or so pounds less than me. This is what happens when one keeps on plodding on and the other gives up! TL you really do inspire me, even when I am severely depressed so thank you!!

Oh I have also ordered a pair of jeans and some leggings from Republic. I LOVE that shop!

I Love Your Skirt!

Hello. Feeling a bit worse for wear today. All self-inflicted though!! I weighed in at 14.5 today (I was 14.9 yesterday), don’t you just love hangover weigh ins?!! Shame it’s likely to be up again tomorrow…

I have been feeling (and looking) crap lately. I get fed up not having any new clothes and I was window shopping yesterday (always a bad idea with money in your purse) and came across this most gorgeous skirt EVER! I walked away because it wasn’t cheap but it was all I could think of. I ended up going back to buy it reasoning that I never spend a lot on clothes and I never find a piece of clothing I like this much (I am soooo fussy because I am paranoid about whether I look okay in it) and I was depressed and ergo deserved it! It turned out to be such a great buy! When my friend, L, arrived before we went out she was amazed, she loved it so much!! She told me it was slimming too (I don’t think it is). I started getting paranoid that it made me look fat and then my other friend, J, arrived and was really very full of compliments about it too! I loved that it was a different look for me. Normally I am all in black but this skirt was like a grey/khaki colour and in a gypsy style. When I was in the pub I got lots of compliments too. Even this guy I have liked for agggges who I have known about a year and has never passed a compliment to me before told me “you look really nice tonight, Groovybabe” (well, obviously he did not refer to me as Groovybabe, that would have been more than a little alarming!) I asked him if he was joking around, winding me up etc and he said he was not “I am paying you a compliment; compliments where compliments are due, you look lovely tonight”, he said and added “I really like your skirt, is it new?” WTF a man (I like!) complimenting AND noticing my clothes!!! I told him it was nice of him to notice!!! I do love my skirt. I wish I could wear it out every weekend!!!

It Points Out My Fat

I am 4lbs down since Monday. I can see it in my face. I feel much better for eating right, inside. I feel in control. There are so many positives from doing this. I am really proud of myself for managing to do it this week of all weeks because my life has been dramas ahoy (just for a change) and I have at all times stuck rigidly to my weightloss plan. This tells me this time I am going to do it again. I am quite excited by this. I can’t wait to start getting comments from the people in my life who only know me at this weight. I can’t wait to hit the ever elusive 13 stone era (although that will be a few weeks away yet)…

You know what I am really looking forward to? When I hit the 12 stone era because I do not consider that to be fat, just overweight. Hopefully others will not consider it to be fat too. It’s also going to be easier to reap the health benefits of weightloss now I weigh less to. After all it will take less pounds to reach a ten per cent drop…

I bought a jean skirt yesterday. It’s the first one I have owned for maybe ten years. I bought a size 16 because that is what I am, but I somehow convinced myself that there was no way it would fit me because I am kidding myself if I think I am a size 16. But of course it fitted me, because I AM a size 16 (UK, remember). However, it was quite tight fitting and while I think it is passable in the day time I would not feel confident enough going out on the pull in it. It points out my fat, or at least I feel like it does. So I guess I am back to the drawing board about tomorrow night.

Talking of tomorrow night, I am giving up beer again. I am going back to sticking to diet coke and vodka. It didn’t do me any harm in the past and will help me to lose weight.

(Oh can I also point out to those of you who have misunderstood – xenical is NOT an appitite suppressant. It blocks 30% of the absorption of fat from being digested into your body, meaning your body turns to the fat stores you already have quicker to burn off, that is all.)