Full of Cold

I had a good day yesterday with food. I managed to find a way around night time eating. I ate around 1000 calories during the day so that I had another 400 to play with during the night. Obviously, night time eating is not ideal but at the end of the day what matters is the amount of calories over all. I probably ended up going over by about 200 but that is much better than going over by 700 like I normally do!

Last week I had a good week and lost 6lbs but then over the next day or two I ended up putting it all back on again and returning to 15.4. A lot of that loss was through dehydration so it was not a complete surprise it went back on but there were binges involved. I have been exercising this week and I think that is helping but I have gradually been getting better and am down to 15.0 today. I feel so achieved with this because it has been slower and I know it is more likely to stay off. It encourages me not to binge too.

I have eight weeks until I am going on the cruise, which, at 2lbs per week, means I can lose 16lbs for the trip. This means I will weigh 13.12 stones. Getting into the 13’s has been a goal of mine for probably six months now, so I am just really going to go for it. I want to go work out this afternoon but I am full of cold today and I am not sure I should or whether I will achieve anything.

My hosting is running out on here today and I am too broke to pay for it again this week so the site may be down for a week or so but in the mean time I will write in http://groovybabe.wordpress.com

Weightloss Is A Good Thing

I think I mentioned a few days ago that I was doing WLR again. I have tried other programmes including fitday, sparkpeople, mynetdiarty, weightwatchers etc but WLR is by far the best. It has a simple interface and most importantly has a database of English foods. It is not the most extensive programme but it has everything you need for weightloss. It also has a supportive forum and lots of articles of interest. The one thing that has impressed me most though is the package they send you when you join up. You get a book about weightloss and a booklet to write down what you eat. These are things I have received in the past but now they add this spoon collection so you can measure out 1/4. 1/2, 3/4 of a teaspoon and a tablespoon. How handy is that?! It also supplied a measuring tape. Good stuff.

I went to the doctors yesterday and once she got over the idea that I was just wasting her time she did order me a blood test for anaemia. She told me she thought it was nothing to worry about though and if my body is telling me to give up working out then that is what I should do! She asked if I had lost any weight and when I told her 5 stone she looked flabberghasted. I went on to explain that this was a very conscious effort and she just continued to look disapprovingly at me! Oh well, I am happy and that is the main thing!

I did well with food yesterday. I had about 1700 calories but I did eat in the night, oddly. I had an apple and a bowl of Frosties plus a few little cheese triangles. Probably came to about 2100 in total. I need 2500 to maintain so its not a total disaster. I just weighed in and weighed the same as yesterday so it is cool. The thing that is most horrible though is waking up and feeling rubbish because you body has undigested food in it. Won’t be doing that again in a hurry.

It is 2pm and I have just realised I havent eaten today!!!!! I woke up at like 11am anyway but then I got to chatting to my friends and before I realised it, it was this time. I am just cooking a chicken fillet to have in a salad before I get on with some work.

I’m On Fire!

Day two of success! 1460 calories, 1.2 litres of water (my bad!), an hour of walking and this morning a loss of another two pounds, bringing me from 14.12 on monday to 14.9 today!

I knew that it was a matter of getting into it again and once I did then it would all be good, but it was just the hurdle of that first initial day. I remember when I started the first time around, I had similar problems. I just could not get into the dieting so I joined the gym knowing that the more I exercised the less I would eat and within a week I was eating less and less. Then I had a good day and I told myself, ‘right, you did yesterday without any problems, there is nothing to stop you doing today in the same manner’. The more successful days I had the easier it got, and the same is happening this time.

I know they say that we should not put emphasis on the scales but I do and that spurs me on. Granted, it fustrated me when they were not going down and – God forbid – when they were going up, but I knew that was because I was overeating. It is about being honest with yourself. If you restrict your calories and work out, there is no reason (unless medical) for the scales not to work in your favour. Sorry, you’ve got self-rightous Groovybabe back!

I have a doctor’s appointment in less than an hour to get to the bottom of my lethergy. I am a bit nervous as I have not been to the doctor’s in ages, but will be pleased to try and get to the bottom of it. I am really really missing being so active. That said, I have been taking more walks down the seafront near my house in order to get any exercise in, which is better mentally for me than looking at a wall inside a badly-lit gym!

Success

I feel so accomplished! I went back to WLR yesterday and had a successful day. I ate 1761 calories, 1.7 litres of water (plus 2 cups of tea and 2 pints of jelly!) and 11.9 portions of fruit and veg. And I did not eat in the night at all! Not a single morsel past my lips! I don’t think I even woke up wanting to eat!

I woke up with my stomach feeling solid and sore but that was not too bad once I went to toilet. I am not feeling full of energy today but I am going to go to the gym and see how far I get with it. I am also going to make a doctors appointment today. No, really. I am.

I was feeling really down yesterday so it makes it all the more special that I had a good day and night. Now I am just going to think, I did it yesterday, I can do it today. And take one day at a time. I am determined to see the scales fall down again. I just want to get to 13.0, well 12.13, at the moment, which is less than 2 stone so I do not see why I cannot do this.

Keep Plodding On

I didn’t manage to stay away from the kitchen in the night, but I did try. The fact that the first two times I made myself get a drink only tells me this is a conscious thing. The third time I woke up I had some of my natural greek yogurt with honey (not too bad!) but then I woke up again a fourth time and ended up giving in and finishing the pot of yogurt and more honey (the yogurt turned out to be 600 calories without the honey!!). Plus 3 light digestive biscuits. Oops.

But I have decided to start being honest with myself. None of this stopping writing everything down the minute I fall off the wagon. I got up and put everything into MyNetDiary and it came back at 2500 calories for the whole day. According to that site, eating that amount every day I would still lose 1.1lb per week. This is why this site is beneficial to me. Normally I would consider eating that much a total diaster but it shows me that all is not lost. It also tells me to just keep trying every day and eventually it will sort itself out. I just have to not have things like natural greek yogurt and digestive biscuits on hand at night.

I am going to go shower now and get ready for the gym. I don’t feel up to it at all but I am not giving in. If I only do a weights session that has got to be better than nothing.

Yesterday’s calories: 2500
Yesterday’s exercise: 1 hour of walking
Yesterday’s water: 1litre
Today’s weight: 14.9

More Successful

I ate really badly last night throughout the night but when I woke up this morning I felt nauseous, I had the pre-sick water thing in my mouth, so I didn’t eat a thing until 2pm. I have just logged up my calories on this fantastic new site: www.mynetdiary.com and it has come up at 1600 calories. I also did an hour of walking today as well, so if I manage to not have a midnight binge, I should stay on track with weightloss.

I think I will be alright about not binging tonight. I seem to have begun to lose my appitite today. I guess that is down to feeling sick. I hope I am not feeling wiped out tomorrow and that I can enjoy a workout. Have decided that if my health is still affecting me come Monday I will go have some blood tests (its the panic anxiety sufferer in me worrying – I dont suffer now but the thought processes are still nagging at me).

In non-health related news, this morning I was locked in my apartment! I went to open the Yale lock and the door was jammed. I tried everything to open it and was about to ring the landlord to come out and sort it out when my Daddy arrived randomly and managed to fiddle it open! Phew!

I have updated the site again, it is very colourful. I still need to play around with it and touch it up, and sort out the sidebar but it looks different!